May 13, 2011

Insta-friend

Lately, I have decided that I don't like a lot of the people I associate with. Some get on my nerves, some are just skeevy people, and some are just ridiculous. Call me a "glass-half-empty" gal, if you want, but I believe that one should never do something that doesn’t make him or her happy. Without much thoughtful consideration, I’ve been rethinking a lot of the relationships in my life. Who’s worthy keeping? Who’s just a high-school friend? Who can I actually talk to?

Some of my closest friends are what I like to call “insta-friends.” (You know those people you meet and immediately you’re friends? Pretty self-explanatory, I know.) I've only had a few meaningful insta-friends in my life. Call it pheromones, fate, or whatever--there is nothing that can make you feel more human than when you meet someone whom you instantly connect to. Some of my insta-friends, I call everyday. I haven’t talked to others in months. One thing that I'm constantly learning is that these don't have to be in your life forever. Even if you and your insta-friend don't make it in the long run, you'll always have that initial chemistry. You'll always be drawn to each other. No matter the length of time, you can always pick up right where you left off.   

As I embark on this journey to adulthood, I realize that "You can always go back to your soul mate. That's what makes them your soul mate." (Greek) Maybe we can have more than one soul mate, and maybe it doesn't have to be romantic. The person meant to be in your life can be a lover, a sister, a friend. Heck, you could have many soul mates. You know that cute barista? Who knows, maybe he could be one of your soul mates ;) 

May 9, 2011

Senioritis

I've tried to write and rewrite this many times, trying to perfect each and every word and to regain my composure as a writer. Honestly? I don't know how to right now. I don't know how to be all the things that make me. I don't know how to inspire, how to listen, how to awaken. Not anymore, that is.

The craziest thing? I don't have to, not right now. As cliché as it is, I'm going through a serious change and maybe when I come out on the other side, I won't want these things anymore. In three weeks, I turn 18. In three months, I start college. Maybe, I need to shed these things, at least for a little bit. Maybe, I need a bit of exploration to see what I really want. Maybe, I just need a break.

Maybe, just maybe, I'm going to be okay.